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It’s been a while and I’ve been stable for quite some time. Living with medication resistant depression is like living with a time bomb inside. Never knowing when it will go off and disrupt your entire life.
That’s exactly how it happened this time. A few weeks ago things were chugging along as normal as could be and …..wham!! Right into a depressive hole. Very deep and with slippery slopes. Bad voices occurred. Suicide thoughts and ideation were high on the list almost instantly. I knew I had to do something quickly. I talked to my psychiatrist about TMS but after we explored the option with our insurance company and studied it further, I ruled it out. First, our insurance company wouldn’t cover it, which my husband said wasn’t an issue, but the final issue was that it took 6-8 weeks for effects to take effect. I couldn’t wait that long.
I had ECT treatment before, so I knew what I was getting into, so I asked my doctor if we could go in that direction. He agreed, and I made the call. I had to wait for my insurance to approve the sessions and once they did, things moved rather quickly. I was on the schedule and in the hospital in a matter of days. I’ve had three treatments so far and I have three more to go before the end of the year. I’m a quick absorber of the treatment, however this time I seem to be having some memory issues, where last time I had none.
I don’t know if they’re using a higher dosage to treat me, or if I’m less tolerant of the current dosage. I have to try and remember to tell them tomorrow that I’m having some cognitive issues so that they are aware.
I do still have the same headache afterward, but Fioricet does help a little, if I remember to take it in time.
Something that is different and a “nice” different, is that I get to keep my cell phone while I’m back in the neuropathies area, and they only take it right before my treatment and give it back after I wake from the anesthesia. This way I can stay in contact with my husband and I don’t feel so alone.
I’m getting to be quite the expert on ECT treatments, so if anyone has any questions, I’d be happy to answer.